Saturday, June 5, 2010
I feel so.......... irrationally ANGRY. We went to the farmers market and bought more strawberries today. Baby-girl got her face painted. Baby-boy was whiny and clingy and altogether horrid, once again made the outting stressful and a pain-in-the-Ass. I hate that. We can NEVER go out and have a good time... Not with the kids.. and most definately not WITHOUT the kids. I want to cry. We then headed to my brothers for an inpromptu visit. My Father happened to be there. Fan-fucking-tastic... we stayed for awhile anyway. But left pretty quickly regardless. His wife was gone for the night staying over at her grandmothers.
The Boyfriend isn't feeling well (he never seems well) as soon as we got home he went to lie down.
I went on Facebook and it seems like everyone else is happy and having fun...
I am ashamed of feeling this way, but I feel jealous... I don't want to feel that way! Its a horrible emotion , pathetic!
It has been beautiful out today.. anyway. I'm just frustrated and tired and stressed and disappointed.... and .... sad. Sometimes I just really want to SCREAM!!! Nothing FEELS Right!