Tuesday, May 4, 2010
Time flies. Oh yes it does. I read one womans blog who disagreed with this. But I believe her to be in the minority. I on the other hand think it may be going even faster for me. I had my third child eight months two weeks ago. I dont know where the time went. I still have bags of stuff we bought a year and a half ago waiting to be put away in the bedroom closet.
Its 3:38 a.m. I guess I'm thankful my boyfriend forced me to take a nap earlier this evening, I'm also thankful I actually fell asleep. It was only for one hour, between 10 and 11 pm. But thank God for that. I am having a tough evening. My mind spinning. I was starving! Or maybe I thought I was.. I'm not sure. But we haven't gone grocery shopping so the cupboards are pretty bare. I made a box of turkey stuffing in the microwave. Gross really... but I was HUNGRY. Sometimes I think the exhaustion makes me hungry. My body is begging for sustenense of some kind really needing sleep.... I so badly want to be able to sleep again. Really sleep. Nothing works. sleeping pills, herbal remedies, melatonin, hot baths, herbal bedtime teas,kava kava, valarian, exercise, massage, sex, meditation, journaling,............. NOTHING! I lay down.. so sleepy, and begin picking at myself, creating huge sores on my body. What the hell is wrong with me. Of course I dont have medical insuarance, or I would be running to the doctor. ... ... I don't know what to do!